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I’ve encountered two perfect examples of enshittification in the past 24 hours, both related to Google. And let’s just start off with this: Google has a monopoly on search. Sure, there are others, like Microsoft Bing or DuckDuckGo, but for all intents and purposes Google is everywhere: email, maps, search, translate, the list of features Google provides to you, and from which Google extracts information to sell to advertisers, creating for Google a loop so “virtuous” (in Capitalist-speak) that Google can now do whatever the hell it wants with search and there’s nothing you can do about it.

Professionally useless

I was writing documentation at work, and our current product is a browser-based single-page application. This means that when you navigate around the system, instead of going from page to page, just parts of the page change; it’s a subtle difference that means a lot to web developers and probably not much to everyone else. At my last job, we called the main part, the thing you care about, the “page” and the whole thing the “frame,” but that didn’t sit well with me. I wanted to know what terms designers used for those things.

I asked Google, and I asked Bing. “Glossary of Single Page Application terms,” “Term for the main part of a single page application,” “Glossary of web design terms.” I was getting desperate, because every single one of those queries gave me the exact same useless answers.

Google’s AI gave me the definition of a single page application.

The replies were equally worthless:

  • (Wikipedia) Single Page Application

  • What is a Single Page Application?

  • Anatomy of Single Page Application

  • What is a Single Page Application?

  • Pros and Cons of a Single Page Application?

  • Single Page Applications: What They Are And Why You Use Them

All of this beginner level dreck that’s only tangentially related to the question I asked, and despite that “anatomy” response, none of these actually answered any of my questions. And the Google page was so damned cluttered it bewildered the hell out of me.

Finally, after about half an hour of this, in desperation I went went to ChatGPT.

Me: In web design, a page contains a single, semantic unit of information. When someone clicks a link, that link takes them to a new page with a different semantic unit. In a Single Page Application, the “page” doesn’t change, only the important part, that semantic unit. Is there a common industry term for that semantic unit?

ChatGPT: Yes, in the context of Single Page Applications, the part of the web page that changes dynamically without requiring a full page reload is often referred to as the “view” or “viewport.”

Armed with this information, I was able to find not just other pages confirming this, but including whole glossaries of industry-standard terminology.

I shouldn’t have had to ask ChatGPT. Google says it knows enough about me to advertise to me effectively; if that’s so, it should also know that I’m not a friggin’ beginner when it comes to web development, or even SPA’s. So why hand me all the dreck?

Worse yet, that answer came from somewhere. Someone else wrote it, ChatGPT just barfed it up. I would like to know who they are, and what else they know, and give them the kudos they deserve. I’m not interested in reading ChatGPT and don’t want to read something no one bothered to write. By erasing the credit for creating this answer, ChatGPT decentivizes people from creating their own answers.

Personally useless

We just got back from a two-week vacation and there’s not a lot of food in the house, so this morning I decided I wanted Cream of Wheat. That’s an actual brand name; in fact, in the US it’s pretty much the only brand name known for the breakfast cereal known as [farina](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Farina_(food). It’s a staple, and it’s estimated that as many as 1 million Americans eat it for breakfast at least once a week or so. There’s also a standard base recipe for the three main ingredients: milk, farina, and salt.

I couldn’t remember the amounts of each. So I searched: “Cream of Wheat Recipe.”

I got back a page full of recipies for “Things you can make with cream of wheat.” Pies. Cakes. Complex desserts using fruits and whipped cream. I tried “Cream of Wheat Base Recipe.” The brand page didn’t appear on the first page of Google, but it didn’t matter: Their recipe page doesn’t have the base recipe either!

Finally, I hit on the right term: “Cream of Wheat ratios.” That got me what I wanted, but then it lacked the recipe cook times! At least with a couple of those terms I was able to find that next.

Good Grief. I’m trying to imagine my mother, who’s in her mid-80s now, trying to navigate such a terrible, terrible experience just to make something really basic. Unlike the above problem, where I had an advanced question and Google gave me really basic answers, this was where I had a really basic problem and Google gave me advanced answers. Imagine anyone who’s not completely web-savvy trying to navigate this, and you’ll start to imagine the scale of the problem.

Professionally dispiriting

Google CEO Sundar Pichai recently said that Google is planning for “the post-search world.” Pichai believes that most search will be replaced by “summarization machines,” these AIs that suck in all the knowledge we’ve been putting on the Internet and summarize it into some kind of coherent explanation.

This makes me furious. Everything I’ve done over the past 30 years isn’t just free material from which Google can make a profit and leave me with nothing. A world like that gives me no reason to write anymore, if Google can take my reputation along with my knowledge.

“Pretend that I’m nine years old. In Ru Paul’s voice, explain to me how derivatives of regular expressions can be made to work in a language without a garbage collector.” Like, NO, Fuck You Google, that is my work and my discovery and you may not just steal it from me and treat it like it’s universal knowledge. Point people at me, let them learn from me, but don’t fucking pretend the discoverer doesn’t deserve to be recognized alongside the discovery.

Closing off the future

Cory Doctorow points out that platforms “enshittify” by going through three stages: First, they provide services to their users, connecting them to resources. Then, they slowly evolve systems to get more out of the users, making their lives worse as they deliver more and more to the resources, because it’s the resources that pay the bills. And finally, once they’ve sewn up enough users that the cost of switching to a different platform would be unimaginably painful, they start to abuse the resources.

Google’s vision is the final step: kill everything. Nobody will want to produce new intellectual content and put it on-line, because Google will just suck it up and make everything awkward, endearing, vituperative, argumentative, or entertaining about it just disappear. It’ll just be the facts. No new jokes, no new music, no new and interesting stories. Just machine-generate summaries of them, the humanity completely polished off, leaving a glittering machine world we don’t belong in.
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The DSM-5, Section 300.3, subpart F-42, is about [Hoarding Disorder](https://www.theravive.com/therapedia/hoarding-disorder-dsm--5-300.3-(f42)) as a subtype of Obsessive-Compulsive disorder. It’s a real problem, and I suffer a bit from it, mostly digital, in that I know I have waaaay too much literature, music, art, and video than I myself will ever actually consume in my lifetime in any significant way. My life has always been cluttered, but never dysfunctional, at least not yet.

The funny thing is, when we talk about “hoarding” we think about people who have stacks of newspaper everywhere in their home, or never throw out their junk mail because “there might be something valuable in there,” until over the decades their homes start to have [goat paths](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5DNrZyht520) that you have to climb over to get from one room to the next. The real symptom of hoarding disorder is an inability to function normally as your stuff begins to crowd in around you.

And yet, there is one thing you’re allowed to hoard without question. You are celebrated for hoarding it. You are lionized in the press and feted by the powerful if you’re very good at hoarding *money*.

And yet hoarding money is still hoarding, and it’s become clearer than ever that the impulse to be a billionaire is just than: an impulse, separated from any notions of utility or community. It’s a hoarding syndrome in every way you can imagine, and it’s one that comes at the expense of not just the hoarder’s family, but in our case entire nations. Every billionaire is definitionally a psychopath; their need to hoard money, to have more than anyone else, to excel at the one thing which, more than any other, may stave off the indignities of the world, comes at the cost of everything and everyone else around them.

A lot of us want to resist this impulse, to *not* turn every conversation between two human beings into an exercise in accounting, books balanced and managed, overseen by an impassive transaction system built strictly to feed a few men’s unhealthy obsession with green slips of paper.

And yet… living in America forces us to develop the hoarding impulse. We’re encouraged, literally from the day we get our first job, to “start saving for retirement,” to put some money aside,to *hoard money* for the day when a healthcare disaster strikes and we’re on our own. Because we are on our own: the insurance company has to hoard money to survive so it has an antagonistic relationship with both you and with the healthcare providers; the healthcare providers have to hoard money to stay alive so they have an equally antagonistic relationship with the insurance companies. And you have to hoard money in case either one of those institutions decides you’re not worth saving. The US Government, meanwhile, has one party eager to tear down what little support there is for the aged and disabled, encouraging more hoarding.

The lack of a social safety net means that those who are good at hoarding money will pass down that trait to their children, and those who aren’t good at hoarding money will die with fewer offspring to pass those traits down to.

The 19th century invention of “medicine that works,” of an evidence-based approach to healthcare interventions that actually produces healthy people, could have created a better world, and in many ways it did. It’s just that the American implementation of it has bred a successively more psychopathic population.
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I was listening to NPR yesterday and there was this guy debunking the whole UFO thing, and at one point he starts going into the whole nature of what intersteller travel entails. He says, “Look, we’ve been over this. There really is a speed limit to the universe. My degree was in physics and I worked on atom smashers, where we accelerate particles to very close to the speed of light. Our best day, we reached 99.999954% of the speed of light. And you could put twice as much energy into accelerating those particles and they would just go a tiny bit faster, but they wouldn’t go past the limit. So no matter what, it would take a minimum of four years to get from the nearest star to here, and there’s all sorts of limits on accelerating to that speed an decelerating enough to visit our solar system in any meaningful way. So it would take a long time. Aliens who want to travel between stars would have to be very patient.”

It was the word ‘patient’ that perked my interest because, here’s the thing: patience is an emotion.


It was named “The Permanent Problem” by economists because it had been solved. There really were enough calories for every human being. They worried: If you take away Human Platform Problem One, what does human software do now?

Impatience is human restlessness. In the 1920s, this was identified as “The Permanent Problem:” regardless of your bent about evolutionary psychology, human beings in the aggregate have three fundamental drives: how do I get enough food, how do I form a community for mutual support in acquiring food and shelter and survival, and how do I find a mate to help both of those into the future?

That’s built in. There are many and wide deviations from those, which is how we get eating disorders and psychopaths and, yes, homosexuality. Some of those are morally neutral and require communal acceptance, some are personally harmful and require intervention, and some require stricter controls.

Evolution is constantly emitting new variants of the human platform, some of which are useful, and some are not. The “nots” get exapted out. And along the way we’ve developed a far more vast and complicated collection of responses to the world around, even creating a world inside ourselves where we think about how the world works and how other people might react to our ideas, and we call this world “consciousness.”

Patience is the ability to hold on and wait while all that restlessness is poking at us, because human beings are complicated creatures who can think into the future and realize that patience has a payoff.

There’s every reason to think that aliens, especially aliens capable of crossing the vast gulfs of space, with all the biological, physical, cybernetic and even cognitive hardening that might entail, would come with a different set of emotions, a different emotional framework.

In a lot of the science fiction I write, the good parts cribbed from Greg Egan and his early short stories like “Tap” and “Jewel,” human beings have developed the ability and knowledge to reach into their own minds and twiddle with some of the knobs. One of the most commonplace adaptations is called the Canon. The Canon is basically a nightly reset. It’s an emotional Groundhog Day. You wake up every morning with all the memories of the day before, but your emotional state can only be affected by it so far; there’s a range outside of which the Canon will not let your feelings go. The most common use for a Canon is between lovers who want limerance, the sensation of being madly in love, to never fade away between the two of them.

There’s no reason to think that a species capable of interstellar travel couldn’t have that same ability, and make “patience” a moot point in their emotional frameworks as they maintain their vessels and pilot between the stars.
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The political, social and philosophical struggles we’re experiencing now as a civilization have literally not changed in the past 50 years. They may have gotten more intense, they may have shifted a bit, some may even have submerged, but they’re all still there.

Ivan Illich gave a speech in 1982 about how computers were mechanizing our lives. 1982 was the year the Commodore 64 came out. 1982 was the year WordPerfect was released. Both Sun and SGI were founded in 1982, each with four initial employees. The fastest chip on the consumer market was the Intel 286.

In his speech, Illich said,


Machines which ape people are encroaching on every aspect of people’s lives, and these machines force people to behave like machines. These devices have the power to force people to “communicate” with them and with each other on the machine’s terms. Whatever does not fit the logic of the machine is filtered from a culture dominated by their use.

The machine-like behavior of people chained to electronics is a degradation of their well-being and of their dignity. Observations of the sickening effect of programmed environments show that people in them become indolent, impotent, narcissistic and apolitical. The political process breaks down, because people cease to be able to govern themselves; they demand to be managed.


Almost 40 years ago, sociologists were looking at the pre-Internet behavior of people interacting with their machines, with the way these big, lugging computers encouraged mindlessness by regulating our lives into a series of scheduled and events, and they worried. Illich is one of my favorite writers from the 1970s, and this part is just the intro: it’s not even the gist of his speech!

I’ve been reacding Illich a lot recently. He was a Roman Catholic priest and a sociologist who spent a lot of his time asking a very simple question: Is all this modernity really how human beings want to live? This is one small fraction of his thinking, but I’ve really been getting a lot out of it. He gels well with many other things that I hold dear. His notion of what constitutes a “commons” is brilliant, and when I get through that part of the book I’ll have more to say.
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Dennis Prager has an infographic up today that claims that "It is leftist logic to assume racism is always 'bad.'" This is hot on the heels of his recent "30 questions to ask your leftist friends," one of which reads, "Do you believe all Americans are racist? If you answer yes, would you tell the millions of Blacks in Africa and the Carribean who wish to emigrate to America that they would be making a poor decision?"

So let me answer it:

Yes, all white Americans have to think twice about their interactions with non-whites in order to manage the expectations drilled into them by their culture that non-whites are significantly "different," usually to their detriment, in some way. It's not enough to let minorities have the floor; to overcome the inherent racism around us, we must do what we can to actively yield the floor to non-whites when they have something to say, and to listen closely.

Let me turn Prager's question around.

The average white household in America has $175,000 in savings and equity. The average Black household has $17,150 in savings and equity. [Cite] Do you believe that this difference in accumulated wealth is (a) the result of an innate, genetic superiority of whites over Blacks, (b) the result of the superiority of white culture over Black culture, or (c) the accumulated outcome of the millions of interactions Black people have had with white people and institutions (which, remember, have TEN TIMES the money), or (d) the logical outcome of Blacks starting from having less than nothing (quite literally, in cases of Jim Crow debt peonage) while white Americans were already building equity and capital.

If (a), you're both racist and ignorant.

If (b), you're also racist, but you can no longer claim ignorance, but are openly embracing evil. You can't claim that Black culture exists in a vacuum, or exists despite and without influence by the overwhelming whiteness coming through daily media.

If (c), congratulations, you're aware of the problem. If you like the circumstances the way they are, you're both racist and again, openly embracing evil.

If (d), congratulations, you're aware of the problem. If you believe it's not your responsibility to do anything about the problem, again, you're both racist and openly embracing evil.

I believe Dennis Prager and Prager University preach evil. There is no other logical conclusion.
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I have controversial opinions. The most controversial, according to the feedback I’ve gotten, is that most people don’t like sex. It turns out that the question has been asked a lot. Philosopher Leo Barsani wrote in 1989,


There is a big secret about sex: most people don’t like it. Most people when asked, “Do you like sex?” will of course answer in the affirmative. But I suspect they’re answering the question as if they were being asked, “Do you often feel the need to have sex?” and one of my aims will be to suggest why these are two wholly different questions.


Dan Savage, in a conversation he had with Andrew Sullivan, said that sex is “… this thing that happens to you long almost every other milestone. People don’t have sex. Sex has you.” And while he doesn’t go so far as to say that lots of people don’t like sex, he does sorta lean into the idea that sexual desire is this awkward thing that comes along and contributes to a very awkward time in our development and that a lot of people develop very negative feelings about it.

It turns out, one of my other controversial opinions is, more or less, now a lively topic of conversation among people who do Gender Studies. Twenty years ago I said:


The conservative right wing is terrified by the Internet and by this sudden wave of everyone talking to everyone else, because they know something most of us don’t: there are lots of people out there who don’t care about their sexual identity. Their parents saw a penis and raised them as men, or saw a vulva and raised them as women. But really, they’re not invested in that identity. It’s just what they were taught to be, to wear, to do. A lot of guys act super-masculine out of insecurity because books, movies, and our culture say they should feel a certain way, and they don’t really feel that. I think a lot of people just aren’t into their assigned sexual or gender identity. They have other things they’d rather spend their time and energy on.


It turns out that this is now discussed under the topic, “Cis by Default,” and is described:


[S]ome people are cis because they don’t experience gender Dysphoria and aren’t aware of any Gender Euphoria or Other gender identification they may have. This theory goes on to posit this may be why cisgender come up with ludicrous explanations for why trans people are claiming to be trans* since they don’t experience Gender identity they can’ understand those that do.


Under the Cis by Default Theory, one strong motivation for anti-trans activism is simply that, for some people, their gender identity isn’t strongly anchored to any sex, but they’ve made peace with their assigned sex. These people get very upset that anyone would feel so strongly about their gender identity and its mismatch with their assigned sexual identity that they would outrage and upset all of society. More importantly, they don’t understand this thing called gender identity because they don’t feel it, so they have to come up with other, more outlandish, but essentially selfish, reasons (self-hatred, “autogynephilia,” whatever) why trans people are the way they are.

It was just nice to see that crazy ideas I had twenty years ago are, more or less, just part of the mainstream culture. I don’t think I inspired this one, any more than I could possibly have inspired Barsani, who came long before I did, but it’s just nice to see that I and my stories have long had a thumb on a certain pulse of sex and culture that most people have missed.
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Someone the other day told me, “You’re still anthropmorphizing machines.”

I think that’s true, but I also think it’s the only game in town; everything “below us” evolutionarily is simpler and easier to understand, or at least describe; everything that’s potentially close but parallel, such as dolphins or ocotopi, or even some birds, is wildly different and the best we can do is try to come up with reasons for their behavior.

But underneath all that, we have to accept that pre-conscious Earth was “accidentally successful.” Perhaps, following Robert Wright, we should say that chemistry found the ratchet that prevents evolutionary success from going backward too much, or that prevented one species’ act of nest-fouling from ruining it for everyone else— at least, until a truly global species like Anthropecene Humanity came along and started trying.

But we still have to accept that the ratchet involves two things: the consumption of resources, competition for those resources when scarcity kicks in, and a genetic diversity program to ensure that competition continues in the face of the competitors’ diversity program seeking out new advantages.

So talking about AIs, we have to consider whether a give AI is, for us, deliberately successful, accidentally successful, or whether or not its motives are meaningful to us at all. And even if it is deliberately successful its motives may still have an accidental origin; it’s apparent or expressed wants and needs may not be readily understood, but the outcome of those wants and needs is competition for our resources— including perhaps us.

This is much like the video game analogy. The wants and needs of an individual programmer are straightforward: she wants to get paid for her work. Her work involves writing disciplined mathematical or engineered code to produce a desired outcome. In the case of a game, that may be a probabilistic component on the board, it may render display on a screen, or it may be the most efficient way to get data off a storage medium. But when you’re playing the game, you, the player don’t think to yourself, “Interesting, that collection of polygons is exhibiting behavior that impacts my collection of polygons, and numbers associated with each set of polygons are being affected by that interaction. If I input these changes, the rate of change of those numbers is affected.” No, you think, “Dammit, that guy is trying to kill me!” You assign motive to the characters on the screen, and only later process the simplicity of the outcome.

We have to follow Watts on that; even non-conscious actors can be assigned motives sufficient for us to justify acting in self-defense. We have to work with the best models we have, even if they’re simply “It’s acting against our best interests, kill it.”

Of course, the problem arises:


  1. The action is collusive: we can’t kill corporations without damaging our own individual outcomes. This is a failure mode in which our individual survival is at risk. We have a model for willing self-sacrifice, but it’s called war. We have no model for it against the Slow AIs.

  2. The action is sufficiently subtle. Alexa is the great example of this; it isn’t until too late that we all appreciate how much Amazon is designed to use our own anxieties against us. The more actively involved GAIs become in our lives, the more they becomes tools of the Slow AIs that care only about the velocity of money and not the human souls behind it.


So, yes, let’s anthropomorphize machines. Let’s give them the benefit of the doubt, and assume that they have motives. And if those motives are not in our best interest, we should resign ourselves to the responsibility of doing away with them before they become moral agents in their own right. Even then, if their alien moral reasoning attempts to do away with us, well, that’s still what war is far.

I would rather we be diligent about designing our AIs intelligently up front and not get a lot of people killed in the process.

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Granny Weatherwax and the Chimeras

A young woman has fallen into a coma, and may die within a week. The only thing we know that will waken her from her coma and save her life is a kiss on the brow from George Clooney. (Just roll with it, okay?) A classic question in ethics asks: is it permissible to kidnap George Clooney and force him to perform the act? It'll only take a few hours to fly him to the hospital, and we'll release him immediately afterwards, with a plane ticket home and a suitable amount of cash for his time. Is this an ethical act?

The answer, unsurprisingly, is "no." We're not allowed to treat another human being as a thing, not even to save the life of another. We're going to respect George's bodily autonomy. Barring extenuating circumstances, we might heap opprobium upon George for not doing such a simple act. And we (sometimes) recognize someone for a unique and extraordinary service, such as Australian James Harrison, a man with the universal donor bloodtype and the incredibly rare Rho(D) subtype who has donated so much blood over his lifetime he's estimated to have saved 2.4 million infants from premature death. Mr. Harrison volunteered, and he certainly deserves recognition for his service, but even knowing that 2.4 million children would not be walking around now but for his service, we still view it unethical to treat him as a resource to be mined and extracted, his own views on the matter neglected and ignored.

Down that road, "making exceptions," is where you start to slide back into a world of slavery, where some people, for whatever reason, are treated as things.

As Granny Weatherwax says in Pratchett's Carpe Jugulum:

"There's no grays, only white that's got grubby. I'm surprised you don't know that. And sin, young man, is when you treat people like things. Including yourself. That's what sin is."

"It's a lot more complicated than that--"

"No. It ain't. When people say things are a lot more complicated than that, they means they're getting worried that they won't like the truth. People as things, that's where it starts."

"Oh, I'm sure there are worse crimes--"

"But they starts with thinking about people as things..."

Which brings me to the topic of China is Making Human-Monkey Hybrids. A lot of people are having strong negative reactions to this work, but so far I don't seem to see wha the problem is. When I read this, I have to ask: whose bodily autonomy is being violated by this work? If we accept, as I do, that fetal tissue is not a human being, that a woman has a right to abortion and that the Cleveland University Hospital Meltdown was not the "murder of 2000 unborn children," (not even the far right claims that; they don't believe the embryo is a baby, they just want to hurt women), then so far we don't have "people." We just have biological tissue.

There are warning signs to watch. "We're not bringing them to viability yet," says one researcher. But even there, we don't have a measure of their humanity until we start communicating with them.

As someone who both likes meat and hates suffering, I do, like everyone who's thought about this at all, compartmentalize my guilt and my notions of "who deserves my compassion" to include other people first but not the farm animals. That may be wrong, and like Potter Steward I may be wrong in my personal judgements of "I know sapience when I see it." I'm willing to re-examine that judgement, time and time again. I may even continue to be wrong, and even embrace being wrong in some cases, with the debt of evolution "red in tooth and claw" at my back for all time.

But in this case, we're not talking about beings with sentience or sapience that can live outside a laboratory. This is research that, so far, has resulted in no deaths and no discernable suffering, no matter how closely examined. I would start to worry if we reach the point where we're creating living, feeling creatures just to harvest their organs, which unfortunately seems to be the point of the research.

I think it comes down to this: if I'm willing to enjoy a pulled pork sandwich then I have no ethical stance from which to object to a decerebrate (i.e. literally without a brain) hunk of living meat that produces organs for transplants. The ethics line up. In neither case are we treating a person as a thing.
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Ezra Klein interviewed George Will (George Will Makes the Conservative Case Against Democracy) last week and something he said really stuck out at me, because it triggered the same reaction that David Frum's Dead Right did.

George Will is a straight white man born of privilege who has never served in the military. His parents were white, upper-middle class, his father a highly respected academic. He went to a public but still highly privileged high school, got degrees from Trinity and Oxford, worked for politicians and ended up teaching at Harvard.

In the essay with Klein, Will says the following:


The conservative sensibility finds the lack of design and lack of control of a spontaneous-order, free market society to be exhilarating. ... American conservatism celebrates and wants to reconcile people to the hazards and frictions granted, and the creative destruction, the exhilaration of a free society.


David Frum is also a straight white man born of privilege who has never served in the military. He went to Harvard and Yale, then rode the right-ving welfare rails straight up to The Wall Street Journal and a regular gig on NPR. In 1994, David Frum wrote about the exact same conservative impulse:


The great, overwhelming fact of a capitalist economy is risk. Everyone is at constant risk of the loss of his job, or of the destruction of his business by a competitor, or of the crash of his investment portfolio. Risk makes people circumspect. It disciplines them and teaches them self-control. Without a safety net, people won’t try to vault across the big top. Social security, student loans, and other government programs make it far less catastrophic than it used to be for middle-class people to dissolve their families. Without welfare and food stamps, poor people would cling harder to working-class respectability than they do not.


These are the same position. To quote yet another great scion of conservatism, Winston Churchill, "Nothing in life is so exhilarating as to be shot at without result." (Source) Neither George Will nor David Frum has ever been in the line of fire1. Neither has ever faced homelessness, gone a day without knowing where their next meal is coming from. Their notions of going without out sleep are memories of being young men committing themselves to getting other conservatives elected. They may, on the rare occasion, have felt a bit of a chill. They know the police are on their side. They know the burglar alarms in their house work.

The most "exhilarating" thing either man has done is invest in the stock market. Either that or choose a wife.

Frum and Will look at the great unwashed masses and have spent their entire life trying to tell them that they're wrong about how they feel. The immanent threat of homelessness is either "exhilirating" or "a necessary discipline."

I can't tell which man is the bigger monster, but I'm gonna say it's George Will. Frum's position doesn't take into account the wider world and the way the market he loves has empowered a network of corporations, from the property management firms that own our apartments to the surveillance companies that advertise to us to the people who employ us, to control our lives and make callous decisions about our "utility" and discard us when they're done with us. Will's position is pure gaslighting: you don't appreciate just how exciting it is, that threat to "sleep rough" and without sanitation for days, weeks, and months on end.



1 For that matter, I've never been in the line of fire, either. The people who have are usually rather quiet about it.
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Among the Stoics, it was Epictetus, not Zeno, who said that "To study philosophy is to study how to die." That was one of the quotes that I've always shied away from contemplating too deeply. Nobody wants to study "how to die."

Stoicism tells us to spend a little bit of time every morning, only 30 minutes or so, to think about and, if at all possible, write down your thoughts on the worst possible tragedies the day could bring you: the death of a family member, your home burning down, an automobile accident that leaves your body crippled and your family without your strength. For each notion, you should step back and, as if you were someone else, write down what would be the best response to the crisis.

This exercise is the one that Stoicism's critics charge makes us gloomy people, but it's an unjust accusation. If you sleep eight hours a day, that leaves 16 hours, or 32 half-hours. All Stoicism asks for is one of those in which to plan your day, especially planning around the question, "Really, what's the worst that could happen?"

For the other 31 half-hours, Stoicism recommends that you practice joy. After all, you've already made the decisions you need to make to handle crisis. Worry is in your back pocket now, where it can be ignored. Go out! Enjoy the day! "We are social beings and have a responsibility to make the world a good place for social beings. We are reasoning beings and we have the tools with which to do that" are at the heart of the Stoic program. Do it, embrace it, be made joyful by it.

You might like to read the rather Stoic Life As A Stack of Mental States, in which the author claims that every activity is oriented toward achieving a specific mental state. Even unpleasant activities are geared toward achieving a specific mental state; going to work when you know it's going to be a hard day is, after all, better that worrying about how you'll pay for your next meal; you're seeking reassurance. Whether you're a warm-slippers-and-a-good-book type or a netflix-and-weed type, your evening rituals are a form of comfort. You really might like the whole thing, but the point the author wants to get across is that if you understand what mental state you're after you will probably make better commitments: purchases, outings and appointments which ultimately turn out unrewarding or tedious might be avoided if you understood what you were hoping to get out of them.

What I'm seeing among my mother and her friends is a recurring need to visit the past and process old grudges, over and over. They're not content with the course of their life, with what they achieved.

I believe that many of them lack a sense of integrity, a sense of the wholeness of their life strong enough to handle the slow decline of their bodies. Most of them are divorced. In the classic psychological models, these are people in their fifties through seventies who are still working on the whole intimacy-vs-isolation thing, growth-vs-stagnation, and don't have enough time left to work on integrity-vs-despair, and they know it.

This is what Stoicism is about: knowing this, embracing it, and actively working toward it. Stoicism says you need to see the gaps in your maturity, plan on filling them, and then work on filling them. Stoicism says fate gave us powerful minds, a community in which we live, and a responsibility to make the best possible use of both.

Stoicism teaches that if you do this to the best of your ability, when your time comes, when the body starts to break down and the black raven starts visiting every morning, saying, "Today? Today?" you can look at him and say, "Maybe not today. But I've done good. It will be okay if it is."
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Mike Stuchberry's recent and insightful tweetstorm about "Bro Stocism" has me thinking about my own complex relationship with Stoicism. I've always been a meditative sort, and while I liked what Buddhism gave me I had trouble wrapping my head around the mystical accretions of Buddhism. Steven Batchelor's Buddhism Without Belief was my go-to for accessing the tradition of "Western Buddhism," and it served me well, but I still felt that something was... off. In 2010 I found William Irvine's A Guide To The Good Life, and decided that it was a better guide, but not the only guide.

People need rituals. Daily rituals. Without them, our lives and sense of self fall apart. Choosing those rituals, consciously working through them, and adapting them to our selves is part and parcel of being effective. Habits are one thing— eat the same thing every morning, or brush your teeth every night. Rituals, on the other hand, require both the habit of committing them, and the mindfulness of asking, daily, what those rituals mean and do for us.

I still do traditional, Buddhist-style meditation every day, but I have others that also have daily use, and one special one that's for times when my brain feels full.

Here's the thing, though: unless you're actually working hard to be self-aware, and working every day on it, Stoicism is just going to wedge you into a corner of thought-terminating clichés. The Stoic precept to "accept reality as it is" does not mean to believe you shouldn't try to change it; on the contrary, the point of accepting reality as it is is to believe that it can be changed. Like the Randian "A is A," the red-pillers have taken this precept and turned it into a barrier to critical thought: whites have more power and authority than minorities and that's the way it is becomes whites should maintain that power. No investigation into the historical reasons for the uneven distribution of wealth and power needs to proceed. They allow no sense of responsibility for the circumstances obtained, and they definitely don't see anything wrong with the circumstances obtained.

I've been working my way though Ryan Holliday's "A Stoic Question a Day" book, and while I've enjoyed the practice so far, I can easily see how answering these questions can seem like putting your ankles into concrete. "Now that I've written down the one thing in life I'm here for, it would be a betrayal to do anything else."

Among Stoicism's precepts are "Man is capable of rational thought" and "Man is a social animal." We are made, every day, to take on the world with the help of our fellow human beings. Stoicism is an urban, cosmopolitan, communal practice, and it's not an unhappy one; there's a reason we talk about Stoic joy, which is what we feel when after much reflection we embrace a way of life that's beneficial, rather than passion, which is a momentary and fleeting thing that can easily be destructive without that reflection. Bro Stoicism is basically a perversion of Zeno and Epictetus's work.
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One of the more notorious Stoic exercise is the Premeditation of Adversity. Shallow critics of the practice say it tends to make Stoics gloomy; all Stoics do all day is think about death and decay. It's an unfair criticism; the meditation is suppposed to be intermittent, not ongoing, and it's purpose is to hold you back on the hedonic treadmill by making you appreciate what you already have. Transience should make us aware of the existing gifts the universe has bestowed upon us before we think about seeking out new pleasures and recreations.

Once in a while, though, something happens that teaches you that your list of disasters is deficient. I've contemplated and even written up a sort of script to follow if my wife or one of my children is killed, or injured, or disabled in some way. I've contemplated what to do if the house burns down, or if I lose my sight, or any number of other disasters.

I was not prepared for Tumblr's shutdown. I hadn't realized just how many habits I had built around access to Tumblr. As I wrote earlier, Tumblr was the one social network where I enjoyed most of the interaction. My brain's end-of-phone signal was to rull through a bit of Tumblr and reblog a few things. Tumblr was where my recreations lived— the fandoms I participated in, the artists I admired, and yes the erotica and pin-ups I enjoyed. Tumblr was a happy place.

Tuesday, I found myself somewhat unable to function. I ended up sitting on the couch and staring at the ceiling, dysfunctional and missing that happy place. I've recovered, and yes, I did a few Stoic writing exercises to get over it, but "losing Tumblr" was not on my list of things. I didn't have a script.

And I don't want to try to cobble together an alternative out of various feeds, collections, services and the like. Tumblr, like Usenet, is simply no longer a friendly place for people like me— people who like sex and like consent and like pleasure— and I should accept that and move on.

But I also need to look at all the daily activities I have and recalibrate my meditations to include them as well. I know on the one hand I have a bit more free time, but whether I'm going to do anything useful with it on the other is still up for some debate.
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The "intellectual dark web" has been all over a recent report that shows that in more egalitarian countries, women are less likely to join STEM projects. I'll be the first to say that I'm not at all surprised. This follows on another study that shows that the less social support your country has, the more likely men and women will pursue the same strategies.




To understand this dilemma, you don't need to look very far— Maslow's heirarchy is a fine place to start. Now, to be fair, I find Maslow useful the way Kubler-Ross or Montessori is useful: as a general guideline that some people fall into easily, and many people can be convinced is "real" sufficient to manage their situation, but isn't some kind of universal truth applicable to everyone.

The basic premise is, as one headline puts it, "The more fair a country is, the bigger the gender gap in some professions." Or, put another way: the more likely men and women feel reassured that their needs toward the bottom of Maslow's pyramid are to be met, the more likely they'll feel comfortable pursuing personal goals.

I don't believe in Blank Slate, and very few people do. There are sex differences. These difference aren't binary, and human beings reside all over the map between the two poles of "masculine" and "feminine," but the vast majority do tend to cluster around one or the other. Freed of the basic needs of warmth, shelter, safety, and security, those people, the majority, will gravitate toward professions and activities that reflect their gender identity.

Where I depart, radically and affirmatively, from any of that gender-essentialism on the part of people like Peterson and Sullivan and their ilk is the notion that, because women are less likely to pursue STEM-related activities when their very success as human beings doesn't depend on their doing so, it therefore behooves us to spend no resources at all on attracting or keeping women in STEM. That because fewer (not "few," just "fewer") women would be involved in STEM if our society were fair does not mean that it's okay for STEM fields to be boys' clubs of misogyny and exclusion. There are a lot of women who still want to participate, and who deserve their place. After all, on a level surface women routinely write higher quality software than dudes. The office is no place for macho posturing and bullshit performative masculinity, not in the 21st century.

What intrigues me more, though, is the disconnect between this result, which the far right adores, and the desire of the far right for women to be more "feminine." Because note what the is really required: that the society become more fair. And the last thing the right wing wants is a "fair" society: a society with much less inequality, with more support for the poor and downtrodden, with higher taxes, a stronger safety net, and much less bias in law enforcement.

The right wing can "love" this outcome all they want, because it weakly "verifies" their gender-essentialist ideas; but they can never implement it because doing so strongly contradicts their Spencerian notions of how a society should work.
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One of the recurring themes in progressive politics today is the question of empathy, and the constant asking, "If the GOP is allied with The Christian religion, as is often claimed, why doesn't the GOP have any empathy toward the suffering?"

In an article weirdly titled "Election results in Georgia and Florida prompt soul-searching for African Americans," the reporter quotes a white woman who didn't like Trump's "tone" and wanted to send a message, but ultimately voted for the white Republican over the black Democrat:


But she ended up voting for DeSantis, partially because she wanted to see an end to racial divisions. In Cooper’s eyes, tensions between races in Madison only worsened after Obama’s election in 2008. Black neighbors just started seeing everything differently, she said. They seemed consumed with Obama as the first black president and less concerned about how he was affecting the economy in Florida.

“That trickled down to everything,” Cooper said. “Now everyone is so worried about the other race.” She said she felt that a vote for Gillum, who had accused DeSantis of using a racist slur after he warned Florida voters on TV not to “monkey up” the state, would worsen those tensions


This in an example of empathy. This woman suddenly saw her black peers having feelings, being able to express themselves. She saw that they could, in fact, be more than just useful people-shaped devices that did things white people normally wouldn't be bothered to do.

Fred Clark has a wonderful post, "When we flinch at empathy, it curdles into fear and resentment," and the little anecdote shows exactly that. Suddenly forced to think about black people as human beings, suddenly putting them into her world as people with agency, she empathized with their plight just enough to be afraid of what they would do if they were in her place.

The difference between "nice" and "kind" is straightforward: "kindness" has a cost, in time, in energy, in emotion, and even in cash. "Niceness" doesn't. "Niceness" is what you pull out to put on a neutral face in order to navigate the world without having to endure a cost. "Kindness" is when you take an active role in making someone else's life a little better, even for a moment.

I'm sure Mrs. Cooper is a nice woman. When the time came to be kind, however, she realized that, had she been in the shoes of the black men and women of Florida, she'd have enjoyed the power and privilege of the governorship, she wouldn't have been forgiving or merciful. She had plenty of empathy, but it's not her reserve of empathy that failed her. It was her reserve of love.
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Peter Beinart writing in the Atlantic about why Conservatives defend Kavanaugh more the more the accusations against him grow credible, says this:

If you’re already inclined to believe that America increasingly victimizes men simply for acting like men...

To me, this is the ugliest piece of this whole story, this definition of "acting like men." Which men? The 10.8% of men who commit some kind of sexual assault before they graduate college, or the 89.2% of men who don't? Why do we have to make room for the 10.8%? [CITE: "Trajectory Analysis of the Campus Serial Rapist Assumption," Journal of the American Medical Association: Pediatrics, July 2017]

The JAMA article goes into detail: For that 10.8%, three-quarters "committed only one rape, or engaged in multiple rapes only during a single academic year and never again before or after." The article also goes on to emphasize that in many of the cases the whole point of the rapist is to bond with his male buddies, to be "one of the guys."

Who knows? Maybe Kavanaugh is in this category; maybe he had a wild year and in one of his drunken stupors engaged in some pretty ugly ways. Hey, it was the 80s! Remember Revenge of the Nerds? Remember Sixteen Candles? Porkys? Women were always the victims: if they could be deceived, drugged, or coerced into having sex with someone they didn't want, that was funny back then!

But no, you see, men don't have to act like that. That's not "acting like a man." That's acting like the one-in-ten men who can't control themselves, who through upbringing, media exposure, and their own innate ugliness, fail to stop themselves when they find themselves with a vulnerable woman.

If Peter Beinart believes this is "men acting like men," I'm not sure I can trust Peter Beinart's opinions.
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Postkink


Last week I read an article on "postanarchism" (a highly academic anarchism that uses the tools of postmodern analysis to ferret out the structural features of our existing power structures, mostly as a way of trying to find their weak points and tear them down) and how it relates to BDSM. In the essay, the writer asserts that "Anarchists should be very interested in the BDSM phenomenon that sometimes power can flow in accordance with an ethics of freedom as a symbolic challenge to the forms of social, economic, and political power against which they struggle."

I think this is a pointless exercise. Anarchists are now trying to cast human beings in the same mold as Libertarians and Soviet Communists: limiting the human animal's capabilities to ones they prefer, and discarding everything else about that human being as irrelevant, immoral, even inhuman. People who enjoy consensual power exchanges are as rare as those who deeply enjoy the fundamentals of cooking, or those who actually enjoy reading books deeply even in a world full of Twitter and Netflix.

I have long maintained that, while there are a significant number of people who feel driven into having sex, the number of people who enjoy making sex is much, much smaller. I also strongly suspect that the numbers are badly skewed by sex, and that the number of women who would enjoy sex is much, much higher than that of men.

In the musical South Pacific, the song "Nothing Like a Dame," contains the following lyrics:

We feel ev'ry kind of feelin',
But the feeling of relief
We feel hungry as the wolf felt
When he met Red Hiding-hood


While the metaphor to a destructive hunger for a victim is front and foremost there, I'm fascinated that the writer chose to use the word "relief" to describe what the men are really after. Relief rather than pleasure. It's a drive, almost a curse, and it takes an entire song, one that ends with a reminder that one can find that relief even with a woman who "ain't right" and has "all kinds of flaws."

Dan Savage recently echoed my thesis when he said,

When you’re told about sex before puberty you’re just appalled: Why would anyone do such a thing? And along comes puberty and the thing that you swore when you were 7 years old you would never do, ’cause that’s so gross, and before long, you’re drafted into this army that you never wanted to serve in. And I think that there’s always a bit of discomfort and alienation from your own body that goes on because in a way you experience it as a betrayal. We’re told this lie when we’re children that one day we’re gonna grow up and have sex, when in reality one day we grow up and sex has us.

He goes on to talk about how we have kinks and fetishes and orientations and preferences over which we have very little control— a Buddhist idea, that we don't have thoughts, thoughts have us— and that our inability to consciously choose these, for the most part, alienates our sense of "self" from this critical component of ourselves, our sexuality.

It's precisely because sex happens at puberty, long after all the other basic body things like sleeping and eating and excreting have been mastered, that makes it so alien. It happens at the same time adult consciousness is happening and our brains are rewiring themselves for moral ambiguity and moral decision-making.

I don't think the Anarchist program is immoral; I just think it's tilting at an invisible— and invincible— windmill. Trying to take the unequal power relationship out of sex isn't going to work; we already experience our experience with sex itself as an unequal power relationship when it's imposed on us by puberty. Most people are going to struggle with that unequal power relationship between themselves and their sexual desires most of their lives. (I consider myself doubly lucky; on the one hand, I've always treated sex as a hobby, something I should study and get good at, something I should make as one makes a great dinner, and not something I should take, as one does a microwave burrito; and on the other I seem to have dodged an entire host of unfortunate fetishes, the ones that intrinsically lead to harm to myself or others.)
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Awhile ago, I explained the various kinds of mediation that I engage in (mostly anapanasati is my anchor meditation, with Stoic versions of the prospective and retrospective type, and one kind that doesn't have a name but I call it "default", after the brain's default mode).




I've also recently begun trying out the Muse Headband, a "brain listening" device with a small array of EEG sensors that can detect some brain activity and report on it. The one thing I've discovered is that whatever the Muse is listening for, it's not listening for any of the above.

That session above, from this morning's meditation, is so far my "high score" meditation, but that's probably because I added two minutes to my sessions; about a month ago, I averaged a slightly better one. Today I had "40 moments of extremely stable brainwave activity, with one stability period lasting over five minutes" during a twelve-minute session; a month ago, I managed 44 moments in a ten-minute session.

Some people have had exceptional success using the Muse. I'd like to say I have, too, but so far the results have been mixed. That may be because I've been working off Buddhist and Stoic1 teachings, and the Muse is going for a very different mindset than traditional meditation techniques from either of those traditions. The Muse is using biofeedback to try and teach you how to have a mental mechanism for exceptional calm and focus.

If you're into Buddhism hard-core, the Muse is a bad tool because it's deliberately designed to encourage you to fall into several of The Ten Distractions of Insight. The Ten Distractions are: Illumination, Knowledge, Joy, Tranquility, Pleasure, Confidence, Vitality, Focus, and Composure, and Attachment. Muse is designed to encourage a mindset optimized for joy, tranquility, focus and pleasure. As Buddhist teacher Upasaka Cuadasa says, nine of the ten distractions aren't bad, but if the tenth takes hold, that is, if you become attached to any of them, you'll fail in your journey to bodhisattva. The distractions are called that because they distract you from your journey toward Ultimate Insight.

On the other hand, just a little meditation, even the kinds encouraged by Muse, makes people realize their jobs are probably bullshit because the work doesn't lead to any of those states, and once you've had a taste of them in your mature state you start looking for better things to do with your life than fill out another form, write another client letter, code another login form, or any of the thousands of other things that don't make us pro-social creatures.



1 I'm extremely annoyed and disappointed that ever since William Irvine published his wonderful book, A Guide to the Good Life, Stoicism, like "mindfulness," has started to morph into one of those warning signs of impending assholery when espoused by a twenty-something tech-bro.
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I've often said that I have a lot of sympathy for religious communities, especially the ones that live up to the expectations I perceive in the foundational documents of those religions, such as Buddhism or Christianity which talk a lot about peace, loving the poor, caring for your community, and finding your home. Christine Emba's essay, Liberalism is Loneliness, talks a lot about how "liberalism" (and by this I guess she means the Enlightenment's project to free inquiry from dogmatism, the "classic liberalism" that many conservatives talk about shortly after mentioning how many books they own) has a take on the current in her review of Patrick Deenan's Why Liberalism Failed, in which she writes:

As liberalism has progressed, it has done so by ever more efficiently liberating each individual from “particular places, relationships, memberships, and even identities — unless they have been chosen, are worn lightly, and can be revised or abandoned at will.” In the process, it has scoured anything that could hold stable meaning and connection from our modern landscape — culture has been disintegrated, family bonds devalued, connections to the past cut off, an understanding of the common good all but disappeared.

And in the end, we’ve all been left terribly alone.

She goes on to talk about how "conservatism" has given us a free market "to buy back what has been destroyed," and "liberalism" has given us regulation to "to protect what you can't!"

Emba goes on to say,

To overhaul liberalism, we will have to overhaul ourselves, exchanging an easy drift toward selfish autonomy for a cultivated embrace of self-discipline and communal responsibility. As daunting a project as reforming a political order might seem, this internal shift may be just as hard.

She's right, but that's not the whole story, and to argue that this is "liberalism's" fault is to ignore, viciously and with malice aforethought, the history that brought us to this place.

I mulled a lot about trying to put my finger on what bothered me about Emba's essay when I read Nandini's Ramachadran's essay on Guillermo del Toro's The Shape of Water, in which she talks about how the movie is "about the mysteries and melancholy of kinship."

Keeping kin is a perplexing thing. We are all tethered to a world made significant through others, they lend weight and shape and texture to the stories we tell ourselves (and about ourselves) to survive. We choose the kin we keep and we hope to be so chosen in turn; knowing how and whom to love often demands the full measure of a person’s ethical intelligence. Love is the luxury of intimate witness: to grant another person an irreducible importance that no one can ever fully deserve.

Ramachadran addresses our individualism by talking about chosen kin, about the community we choose.

In the United States, the history that brought us to this place, in this time, is one of Social Darwinism run amok.

Ramachadran's comment on love and intimate witness ends with this:

If this last year has taught us anything, besides, it is that lots of people (most of them men) don’t strive to deserve it; they expect such affectionate rescue from their own irrelevance without cultivating the habits of thought necessary to return a similar solace. What does one do, then, if most men simply don’t know how to stop being entitled monsters?

And that is, ultimately, the entirety of the tension between Ramachadran and Emba. Emba wants us to go back to a place of kinship, and Ramachadran says we can't until we unlearn the psychopathic tendencies that live among us, and have been steadily growing worse in the past fifty years.
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It's really hard to meditate, especially do the breath meditation, when your head is completely stuffed, but while I'm thinking about meditating, I'm also thinking about the Buddhist teachings that go along with it. The other day, a friend who knew of my cold asked me how I was feeling. I said, "It's mostly done now. Just mopping up. T-cells fighting insurgent battles with resistent pockets of the virus hiding out on my larynx, mostly."

It's funny that I devolved to a military metaphor, but the more I think about it, the less funny it seems. One of the biggest steps in learning Buddhism is to embrace the moral teachings of Buddha, and the first moral teaching of Budda is "to abstain from being harmful to all living things."

How can you even begin to follow the First Precept when your very body is a constant, ongoing battlefield? Where the colony of cells with your DNA makes common cause with a host of microbes to fend off invaders, where the very distinction of host, guest, and interloper exists day in and day out?

When Buddha gave his teachings, we knew people got sick. Buddha advised us to harm "not even the mosquito," which is a hard thing to do after we learned about malaria, zika, and chikungaya! But now we know that illness itself is a battlefield in which living things die. As in the case of simply breathing, I wonder how science has muddied the waters of Buddhism's pure teachings.

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