Today's Update is There Is No Update

There’s no point to making much of a medical update today; I’m just in a holding pattern, just waiting to see if anything changes. My throat hurts more than anything else, I’m losing my voice, I may lose the ability to swallow soon because of the stomach pump.

In TMI news, the doctors were concerned that I hadn’t had a bowel movement in two weeks. I’m not sure what they were expecting when they’ve been feeding me low-residue, easily digested pap. They updated it to “whole food” pap in the past 48 hours, seeing as my problem is not absorption, it’s being able to get food past the duodenal collapse. They forcibly, chemically induced a reboot of my colon, and got the desired result. Hopefully they’ll stop fretting; the rest of me works just fine, it’s the duodenum that’s still constricted.

Omaha and one of my best friends stopped by today, kept me company, held me and reminded me that there is a life out there beyond my hospital bed. I fell asleep twice during the day, unable to keep my eyes open. And after about 3pm, I just cannot think straight at all; I can react, I can communicate, I can even play games, but I have zero executive function for anything other than caring about my pain. I’m just vegetative.

So this just sucks. It’s boring, and I’m just waiting for something to change. Anything.